How have you changed I the past two years? Hum. This is difficult because I have grown up so much when it come down to it from month to month, but I still am the same person I was. I still have fun and love meeting people. I just feel as though I have made a lot of life changing realizations and just grown up.
boys are all the same. We just choose what we want to see and what we pretend isn’t there.
My favorite tv show. Easy. Pretty Little Liars!! I love all the mystery, all the suspense, and yet I still can relate to it because they are teenage girls. It is the greatest show on television at this point. Before that though. I and the absolute biggest obsession with the show Greek. It was amazing!! I literally would have dreams about it because I would watch episode after episode on Hulu. I loooove that show. I wish they would have never quit making it!!
How important is education to you. Ha. Well. I have an obsession with learning. I always feel like I have so much more I want to learn. And so much more I want to teach people. Education is definitely a top priority in my life. I plan on learning until the day I die.
Truly relieving learning the gospel. (: Thank you my savior.
Disrespecting your parents. Although I say I hate when people do it, I am not always the nicest to them. I feel like I get along just fine with them, but I tend to argue with them and say that my opinion is more important then theirs. Which is not right. Respecting your elders is a big part to making yourself a good person. (:
Yayyy(:
My beliefs. Hum. When I think of my beliefs I immediately think of my religious beliefs. But I guess what you believe is so much more then that. I believe I deserve happiness. I believe I have the right to be who I want to be. I believe everything happens for a reason. I believe everyone deserves a chance to be a great person and judging them before you know who they are could force you to never know a truly amazing person. I believe everyone is kind, they just choose how much kindness they want to show. I believe that life is given to us so we can actually live, if you never take risks or try new things, how could you have truly lived a full life. I believe that I am going to make something of myself, which means that I will because I actually believe in myself. As far as beliefs go, I have a ton, but ultimately I am religious, so I am affected pretty strongly by those beliefs as well. I was raised catholic, and still believe that way, along with fallowing some Christian beliefs as well. (:
Highs and lows of the past year. I have been putting this one off because I feel like it’s gonna bring out so many different emotions. Hum. Where to begin with this year. Well this time last year I felt like I had everything going good. I was happily in love with devin, I had the greatest 4 friends ever, and I was about to start my senior year of high school. Then slowly things started to crumble around me. On November 2nd I had what I thought would be the worst day of my life. The man I thought would never hurt me, crushed me from the inside out. I had never understood why it happened. I still don’t quiet know. He wrote me love notes. He told me everything. He got giddy when he saw me. He was completely and utterly in love with me. Then boom, on day it all just ends. He went from talking about our future at UNR, in Oregon, and together, to talking about nothing or if we did it would be about him trying to get with girls. Nothing hurt more. After suffering through and going through the motions, I learned to live with it while continuing to get screwed by devin. It’s weird cause for the most part, no one knew I was upset because I continued to do all the stuff that was expected of me. I had fun going to all the games. Cheering as loud as I could. Painting my body. Party’s. Pranks. Friends. Learning. AP tests. Sleepovers. JA. Prom. Homecoming. Dress up days. It was an amazing senior year. And it ended with of course my graduation. But with all good comes some bad. On May 20th, my best friends boyfriend, and one of nearest and dearest friends passed away. I thought the pain from devin was bad, but I had never experienced such pain and such helplessness as I watched my best friend suffering through the worst moment of her life. I wanted nothing more then to protect her and stop her from hurting. But I couldn’t do anything but watch in agony. Shortly after we were given a much needed trip to Disneyland. Although Rachel and I have always been best friends, we had grown apart over the years and the Disneyland trip truly bought us back to our friendship we have known since we were young. It was truly spectacular to rekindle the greatest friendships I have, and will ever have. And I get to continue to stay connected to our friendship because the two of us, and miss Amanda ohh moved in to our own house together. (:
No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or will be devoted to one and despise the other. You can not serve both God and Money.
Mainstream music. I really don’t fallow mainstream music. Not because it’s bad, I just don’t like it as much as the music I listen to I suppose. (:
My favorite tumblrs. Humm. I guess I love reading what my friends all have to say. A really good one is icanread. They always post the greatest pictures(:
I haven’t cried about you for a while now. But why did yesterday just make it hit me again. I hate that you left Rachel. But I low that you saved her. Miss you kacey lee.
How do you break up with someone that didn’t do anything wrong? If you just don’t feel the spark? What do you say without hurting their feelings? Is it wrong to not give it a chance? Or is it okay to not try and force it? If everyone likes him for me, then why wouldn’t I?
My earliest memory. I am weird. I remember so much from when I was little. My first real memory I could think of is when I was 2, at my uncle kennys house. I was sitting next to the pool in my favorite blue an teal bathing suit. My grandpa was swimming in the pool with a noodle and kept squirting water through it at my older sister Stephanie. She was wearing a matching swim suit with me, which I think was the reason I liked it so much. My uncle Kenny was in the hot tube and my dad was out of the pool BBQing hamburgers in his old fashion blue swim trunks that he still wears to this day. Then sitting next to me was my grandma dipping her feet in the water. What I remember most was my Grandma’s nails. They had a purply redish tint to them and they were shaped sort of round like. I remember thinking it looked like she stuck kidney beans on her fingers so I kept dunking her hand in the water, pulling it out, rubbing her nails and staring at them. Then she turned it into a teaching session, she would make me count and add the fingers as I dunked them in. I always think it is crazy how I can remember almost everything from when I was little, but I cant even remember what I had for breakfast most of the
Time. (:
Some place I want to live or visit. That’s easy, FRANCE. (: I have the weirdest obsession with it. I went once, and I have never wanted to go back anywhere more in my life. It is the most beautiful and warming place I have ever been. I plan on living there for a few years of my life at least.
My whole day
*fell asleep at devins around 12:15 and woke up around 2:30
*drove to my beautiful new home
*got my pajamas on
*bathroom break
*put on some Joe Dirt
*turned on my fan
*finally laid in my bed and did my final social network check
*slept (:
*woke up
*went grocery shopping with rachel and Amanda
*got starbucks
*put away the groceries
*watched the end of I love you man
*got ready
*ate some Mac and cheese
*watched most of A League of Their own
*went to work
*worked
*kurtis came in so I folded clothes with him
*made a lean cuisine on my break and ate some wheat thins with it while I watched a movie called Notting Hill?
*worked some more
*got off work and talked on the phone with alex on my way home
*made Alfredo and noodles
*talked with Donald then Ryan, rachel, jeanna, Hillary, kurtis, Amanda, and richie.
*thennn went to the Captain America premiere. (:
I am now dating a boy. But I would rather be with the ex and the ex is starting to want me back. Shiiiiiitt. What do I do. ):
The next 10 songs on my shuffle. Haha
1. Bad Enough for You by All Time Low
2. Break Out! Break Out! by All Time Low
3. Brick by Boring Brick by Paramore
4. Dear Maria, Count me in by All Time Low
5. A Cold Day in July by Dixie Chicks
6. Blue Eyes by Moondog Matinee (my cousin look him up!!!)
7. I Must be Dreaming by The Maine
8. Running from Lions by All time Low
9. Change your Mind by All American rejects
10. Just Lose it by Eminem
Hahaha. It’s funny how perfect this shuffle was. That’s basically what I listen to. (:
